Grr.

Woke up in a bit of a snit today. Just right off the bat. I had sort of weird, grouchy dreams, too. Can't retell them, don't remember them, but know they weren't restful.

I'm a bit bent out of shape about money, I think. Had to take my car in yesterday after the engine seemed to be on fire. Blue smoke all of a sudden everywhere. Stupid cars. I wouldn't bother but I'm caught in this place where I need the car for work, so I gotta pay for it in order to get paid. Capiche? Argh. Anyway, needless to say, for anyone that's known me for any length of time, I don't have extra money just lying around waiting for my car to break down. So, now it's rent or car. But without car I can't work.....you see? Wish it didn't get me all jangled up, but it does.

Although, it has just occurred to me this second that I might be all out of sorts because I have to go do comedy tonight. Very nervous. And after my rant last night feeling a bit snarly at it.

I'm going to write something now. But what? But what? Jokes, jokes. I want to just get up there and vent, but I don't know how to make it funny. Same, dumb struggle I've been having for the last two years. How do I take what I believe and make it funny? Just keep punching, that's the thing to do.

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